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What I Feel

2004-08-18T22:42:00.000-07:00

For PDV

If i had only known how my love for you has grown, I wouldnt have let u go
How many times have i closed my eyes, dreaming of you and i?
How many times have i cried, feeling my tears run down my cheeks? When can i finally let my love for you go, this numbness taking me over? Our world was different from what others had...no one understood what we had, only you and i know the beauty of what we had. I was your world, your everything, the words you said to me etched froever in my soul but i lost you. I lost myself, I cannot define the pain, of your loss, the pain knowing you found someone else but i believe in our love, the love i once knew we had and shared. It cannot die, it will not die. In my eyes i see.....only you...our lives will go on and on...only for you and me. On separate ways but there is one truth i see and always know that i need you more than you'll ever need me, when my dreams are shattered and my hope and love gone, i will go to you your love so pure and innocent, i'll always love you. I know now the reason why i met you, why fate brought us together i was not meant to be with you but i was meant to be someone to you....loving and caring silently for you...

Now i can let go :)

More poems by Him

2004-08-18T22:38:00.000-07:00

Two of his poems aside from despair when he asked me to get back with him

The void

They say time will eventually mend a broken heart,
However, I am still sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Every morning I hope the day will pass with ease only to face endless nights
Each night I hope to dream away without seeing your face

I cry out to the sky hoping to break the silence
All I could hear in return is the loud stillness in my head

Standing in the pouring rain with each drop pounding
I wonder how things muddle up in the way

I think back when the only thing that mattered was you and i
You were my everything, and you were my world

It didn’t matter where we were, as long as we were together
I wish you to be small enough to fit my pocket, that way you’d always be with me

I would dream of sleeping beside each other, even if we were cities apart
I would save the right side of the bed for you, miles apart, and hope you would save me the left

I’ve Loved You for so Long

Why can’t you ever love me
When I’ve loved you for so long?
Perhaps you could just try to see
That maybe I belong

I might bring smiles to fill your days
And words to fit your songs,
If only you would come and stay,
I’ve loved you for so long

Vainly, you search somewhere else to find
The love you ever seek
Touch and take this love of mine,
A love that’s yours to keep

All by: pye de vera

Some of Popeye’s Poems to me:

2004-08-18T22:36:00.000-07:00

When he and I First got together:

We have long stared at each other,
Yet our eyes and our hearts do not see;
We have long held each other’s hands,
Yet, we still lost the other;
Long we have kissed,
Yet we do not feel;
And long have we wished for the freedom of our love
Yet it cannot be

Certainty has never been so clear to me
As it is with my love for you
And yours for me
Time has taken its course
And yet what feeling felt before
Still linger on and flow deeper and stronger
Questions keep me going
Striving to find the answers
In your eyes, your touch, your love
There are no questions that be left unknown
For as long as our love goes on

If I were to cease breathing,
I’d go in peace
For the beauty of loving
And the joy of being loved
I have had the chance to discover
With you and only you…
Such tranquil and serenity
In your face I always see
Could take me away from all eternity
And if fate were kind
and breathe me back my life
I shall not love anyone else
But you

I shall remain,
Eternally yours

By: pye de vera

Despair

2004-08-18T22:33:00.000-07:00

Pye wrote this to me when he asked me to get back with him...beautifully written :)

DESPAIR by Pye de vera

“I love,love so true;
My heart wandering about you,
Whether your heart feels the same way too;
Time will come, time will tell
Anything,everything about us too.

I feel lost, so lost;
No reason to stay, my sun
Shattered in the sky;
My Heart’s desire, it
Does not find,
Only time, time will judge
The feeling in our hearts,
Yours and mine.

How do I let you see?
My love, love given free;
I feel, I feel, I feel…
Despair
Without end, relentless
Despair without compare;
Only time will see, see
What the future holds
For you and me.

So I rest, my soul is tired,
Without hope there is no life
But tired as I am, still I hope
Hope that love will come to me.”

Tanka!!

2004-08-18T22:02:00.000-07:00

I see him, he smiles
My eyes overwhelmed with sights
Flights of butterflies
Then white as mist, I can’t see well
Louder and louder, an unexpected song

Water flows from me
In a well, it never dries
Further, deeper and colder
You’ll fall, dark and pitiful
Look at my soul, I can’t let you go

Haiku!!

2004-08-18T22:00:00.001-07:00

The sun glares at them
But its spun gold
Swirling around the trees

Cotton fluff at each tower’s peak
Flashes of wings and color streaks
Cover and fill the view we seek

It comes and goes, each creature knows
Once in sight but after light
Life creeps into its bed

What she replied

2004-08-18T21:59:00.000-07:00

His hands on her face
The face he delicately painted and caressed
Caressed with care and colored with life
Life she wanted and life he gave
He gave her beauty and love
But love she can’t feel; she’s but a doll
A doll made out of porcelain but
A porcelain doll that sheds tears
Tears in her heart for she is not real
Yet real are the feelings she hides inside
Inside where she loves but cannot she cannot move
Move to touch her creator’s hands
The hands that slowly reach out to her
Reach out and take her out of her shelf
A shelf for her, the only place for a doll like her

Poems! :)

2004-08-18T21:56:00.000-07:00

He was alone; lonely and alone
He made a doll; a porcelain doll
A porcelain doll painted delicately
Delicate colors and delicate features
Features of lips and eyes
Eyes that shined like diamonds
Diamond eyes and lips
Lips as red as a blooming rose
Rose-red lips that sends quivers to his body
This body he made, he cannot touch
The touch so cold when he reaches out to her
She who he thought would make him alive
Alive yet so foolish to believe in his porcelain doll